It’s been a week now since I’ve returned to Mozambique, my home country. The idea of leaving Britain had been hunting me negatively for almost a year now. Although it didn’t completely feel like home, it felt right – super right. It’s a place where the resources I need to get closer to my dreams are readily available and my time isn’t susceptible to uncontrollable variables.
The weeks prior to my flight were filled with concern; I didn’t have the easiest time imagining myself in a completely new and different scenario. However, I admitted that negative thinking wouldn’t change the situation. I turned to the bright side and as the day of my trip approached, I saw myself more and more excited about the upcoming transition.
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”Bloom wherever you’re planted” and ”Where God guides, He provides” are two quotes I kept repeating to myself. I began to realize that the simple fact moving to a country with a completely different vibe than the one I prefer shouldn’t be enough to crush my dreams and erase my established goals. Most importantly, moving to ‘wherever’ should never be enough to change the person I’ve become over the past few years.
I mostly owe the positive changes in my character to all the books I read about personal development. Therefore, because I’m sure I have developed the right mindset and personality to fight for my wants, I began to accept the fact that coming back home wouldn’t be detrimental to my plans.
After knowing that my chances of renewing my VISA were pretty low, although I wanted to remain positive I had to ask myself ”Ok Yara but, if worst comes to worst and you have to go home, what are you going to do? What direction will the blog and the Youtube Channel take, aside from the other entrepreneurial ventures?”. Because I had planned my content up until January, I had to ask myself these questions.
However, with acceptance comes clarity and with clarity comes newness. By accepting that I was coming home I started opening myself to all the upcoming possibilities. I began to find exciting answers and generated a whole new plan and new goals in less than a week. It got into a point in which I was so enthusiastic about the new plan that, being denied the renewal no longer felt like the end of the world. Flexibility and creativity are amazing traits to develop.
Believing that things won’t be as bad as they seem, is a great start for one to become more receptive of big changes. I am not a pessimist and I tried my hardest not to be on that spirit whilst visualizing my new life. Things change and some of the aspects about home that I deemed negative aren’t half as bad. Deploying on pessimism and negative thoughts can be a big waste of time and energy.
It is also clear as water that I didn’t come home to settle, this isn’t the end goal. All I am here for is to create a ground from which I can fly higher, be it back to Britain or to any other country of choice. To build such base will be a challenge but also a great experience that will undoubtedly teach me a lot.
There is indeed always a silver lining. My ambitious nature makes me feel the most comfortable when I am alone and working towards my goals 24/7 which was the case in Britain. Coming back home means less alone time and perhaps a less productivity – which scares me. But at the end of the day, this is the place in which I am the closest to the ones I love and that love me the most. I thank God everyday to be able to enjoy my parents presence and to witness family gatherings filled with love and laughter – it’s priceless. Pri-ce-less. So it is to be able to hug and squeeeeeeeze my baby niece and nephew!
And oh, I missed ‘home food’ so much. My plate here is always full…guess I am trying to make it up for all the time lost, haha.
As I mentioned on my previous post, Mozambique is a hot country. I’ve been staying at home a lot just to avoid walking under the sun, since I don’t drive. However, at around 5pm when it gets breezy, is when I realize how much I missed this weather.
I am excited to switch my style to Summery clothes. Already stacked on some bardot tops and I can’t wait to start styling and photographing everything. The biggest challenge is to find locations that fit my aesthetics to a minimum but I’ve spotted a few around the city, whooop!
For now I will continue to share my Winter style because I have ‘pre-shot’ outfits and posts that can be of good use for all of you in the North hemisphere. I believe you can always use some inspiration!
So, did you have to deal with any big change this year or ever? How did you deal with it?
Let me know on the comments!